Unemployed

So I have only 3 days left until my current job comes to an end. Funding ran out for my position. Hey in the non-profit world it happens. I'm still searching for something, but not too stressed out about it, since I can probably get away with not having anything for at least 2 months, maybe a little more. But as I continue this search, I couldn't help but find something I wrote a few years ago, when I was working somewhere I particulary didn't like at the time. Hell my life was all kinds of crazy now that I think of it.

Here it goes, tell me what you think.

I'm tired of this struggle,
This struggle that I go thru
on a monthly, naw weekly, hell even on a daily basis.
While I sift thru the rubble
of what I call my life
Tryin so hard not to be mellow-dramatic
and say that my life is in shambles
But what's the point
maybe I should develop an addiction
go out and just gamble,
throw it all away
but don't really have material possessions
at least none to call my own
sometimes mind just wanders
and I enter a trance, some sort of zone
I just want the best out of life
I know damn well I'm not alone
5 Years spent.......Okay, maybe 6
Don't look at me that way, like you on some otha shit!
Okay, Like I was sayin 6 years spent
gettin that higher education
But job after job with no one really hirin'
It's just added fuel to the fire of my frustration
Having to make this struggle from a kid with no worries
to an adult all while life keeps me down with economic castration.
And yeah that shit hurts, like you can't even imagine.
But it could be worse, you know what I'm sayin
I spent 5,
Damn Yall!!! Ok 6!!!
6 years learnin, but for what?
So I can be lookin out, not knowin if I will be able to make it
with my next lousey check
and things I want just keep me yearnin
for more chances to finally get in that door
that door they call success
but knowing that I have to be patient
but ain't that a bitch...
when I've been taught I shouldn't except nothin less
But here I am makin less than I know I'm worth
Spent those, yes 6 long ass years puttin in the work
to just be in the same place I could've been in
without the higher education, drama and sort.
© April 2005