So it has finally arrived.... My 30th Birthday!
The day that I have been looking forward to, but also the day that I have been dreading, all at the same time.
No time in my life has my birthday arrived so fast when I did not really want it to. Isn't life funny that way. I just wanted to hold on to the last bits of being 20 for as long as I possibly could. A few months ago when I was realizing that the day was drawing nearer, I think I went into some sort of panic mode because I just didn't see myself lacking in the areas of my life that I thought I would have by now. I mean when you are 20, you have a certain perspective of how you would like your life to turn out and think by the time the next decade rolls around you would have made strides to have everything that you ever wanted. Unfortunately this is not the reality for most of us and I think I had to finally realize that. The wake up call was when I looked at the people nearest and dearest to me around my age that were going thru the exact same struggles and it seemed no one was where they WANTED or THOUGHT they would be by now, so it kind of makes it OK. It's not like any of us are doing bad either, many of us have accomplished a lot. My mother even had to make me step back and look back at all I have achieved and should be proud of. Going to an institution of higher learning, graduating, moving across country and making a home for myself and having a decent job, especially in these tough times. What she said made sense and I finally took a breath and realized, hey, maybe I have made something of my life, and instead of looking at 30 as the end of an era, I should look at it as JUST THE BEGINNING!
I've already started making plans to make 30 and beyond great. From getting back in the education system and tutoring adolescents, and making some time for extra curricular activities, such as becoming multi lingual with another Italian class starting next week. Things will start to pick up from here, and maybe even a possible career change sometime in the near future, so we will see.
And last but not least, I cannot help but feel proud that my 30th Birthday will fall on one of the most historical days that this country has seen in decades: The Inauguration of Barack Obama! I was just talking to my personal trainer yesterday about how significant this is not only because he will be the first Black president, but because in the last few decades we tend to have had a lot of memorable moments, but a lot of it stems from tragedies.
But later today, History will be made and everyone around the country, and even the world will be looking with open hearts and as a collective unit. Who could ask for such a perfect Birthday present than that!?!
p.s. I knew there would be celebrities out the ass this weekend because of the festivities, but I never thought I would run into, get an autograph and a pic with Common, one of the best rappers out here.